Well, that's it!

Wow.

I dont think ive felt so many mixed emotions at the same time. I really cant believe that its over. What ive been doing for the past 2 years is all of a sudden coming to a screeching halt, and its pretty rough, im not gonna lie. I truly am sad to be leaving.  Well, to be honest i really wasnt feeling like i was going basically until sunday.  On sunday i had my last interview with President Humphrey. Basically, all it was were counsels from him about studying when i got home, getting married and staying active in the church for the rest. That was pretty cool. Then we went back to the sector and i had to say bye to people. I said bye to Laura and Melanis family. And it was really then when i realized i was going to be very sad leaving. Its not to fun, knowing i might not see these people ive grown to love, but its whats gotta happen.  Really, i have a lot of bittersweet feelings. Im happy to be going home to see you guys, my old friends, yet im very sad to leave the new friends i have here.  Happy to go home and be able to see movies and whatnot, but sad to never be able to preach the gospel full time. Basically thats how im feeling. Im so, so grateful to have been a missionary though. I would never trade this time for anything. Ive learned soo much, and really have become converted to the gospel.  And ive seen other people do it too. Ill be very sad to never do it again. Me da pena just thinking about it. Basically it all just feels really surreal, then i remember how i wont be able to see these people again, or invite someone to be baptized, then i get pretty sad. I think itll be that way a while. But like i said, thank goodness i came on a mission. It truly has been the best 2 years of my life. And im really excited to share everything about it with you in 2 days!!!!! See you then!!!! :)

 

Elder Ryan Mayberry